Hello,
My name is worthless, that does not mean that is what I am! Recently I have been called worthless by a few people in different ways. Now initially this hurt me and I took offense. I take offense to things a lot so it didn't bother me. As the days passed and one co-worker wrote it on our org-chart next to my name it started to sink in. There it was WORTHLESS. I know that this was done in the spirit of fun because I know the co-worker well and he was just having fun. What he didn't know was that my spouse of 15 years told me something very similar the day before, he didn't know my boss hired my replacement without even telling me, he didn't know that I struggle with a mental illness and this could send me over the edge. So what says I about being WORTHLESS? Simply that worthless must just be my name. Because WORTHLESS I am not. I am many things, I could go in to a dramatic list here and name all the things where I come up short at. But I won't we will save that for another day. So how do I know that I am not? I am the bread winner in my family I support us and have since day one. I provide a nice comfortable life for my spouse and kids. They want for nothing and neither do I. In regards to being called this at work I know that's not right. Not blowing my own horn here but I do a lot at work. I don't just mean I do a lot and my job is hard. I mean I do A LOT!!!! I am damn good at my job, I get paid handsomely, I have perks that no one else does, I get as much face time as I want with the CEO and I have much freedom to do what I want. I found out my boss hired my replacement so I can be promoted. So I know I am not WORTHLESS. I could have easily sank in to a depression and worn this lable given to me in just and started playing the part but I didn't. I wore it as a name, a badge of honor, a symbol of "thank God I am not that!" So what's my point? Don't be a lable, don't accept defeat or failure. Of course your ass gonna fail. But fail forward! Yuck that was pretty cheesy but it's true. There are a million quotes like "you can't make an omelette without breaking a few egss" and my favorite "fail, fail, fail again." But it's true, you can be what people preceive you as or you can not give a shit and be more. Personally I don't give a shit and became more. Now that was a lie my mental illness doesn't let me live without actually giving a shit. But I ignore it as much as I can.
Sincerely,
Worthless
